151 with 8 weeks to go.
I love weekends
This last weekend was so nice. It was finally nice outside for a while.
We worked on little girls’ room almost all weekend. On Sat we painted the rest of her room and Mike has been working on trim for the window. I can’t wait for it to be all finished. The carpet is going to be installed on Thursday so it’s very close.
This last weekend was so nice. It was finally nice outside for a while.
We worked on little girls’ room almost all weekend. On Sat we painted the rest of her room and Mike has been working on trim for the window. I can’t wait for it to be all finished. The carpet is going to be installed on Thursday so it’s very close.
I had a blast hanging out with Bug this weekend On Sat while Mike was working him and I sat on the floor and played and played and played. We had a blast. First we played with puzzles, then we played with cars, then we colored and then we played with sissy it was so much fun!!! He is just the best kid I swear.
Also, my parents came over for dinner last night which was great. I love having my parents up to see the kids. My son is just so thrilled with his Papa I love to watch to two of them play together It warms my heart to watch the smiles and hear the giggle on both of their faces. I can't thank God enough for the wonderful blessings I have in my life.
So today was weigh in and I am so proud of myself I am down to 151 lbs SOOOOO excited!!!! I have been working my butt off I tell you. I am so determined to loose all of this weight. I can’t wait to be skinny again. I hate thinking about how I look all the time and worrying that something is not fitting right or what ever. So jumping on the scale this morning and seeing that wonderful number drop yet again just thrilled me I will make it to 135 if it kills me.
So here is and updated count down…
March 27, 2006 - 151 with 8 weeks to go.
O.K so drama in the Thompson’s house. Mike and I started to talk a bit about our future and all that jazz and the topic of kids came up. Mike is adamant about not having any more kids. I am pretty sure I want one more. It’s hard to disagree on this. I can understand where he is coming from but I just don’t want to commit to the fact that my child bearing years are over??? UGH. Not sure how to express it. I guess it’s all about the issues that I have with my own mortality? At least that what I think it has to do with. I think that if I say that I am done with having children then it makes me that much closer to death. I hate to put it that way but that’s how I see it. It’s like the last major mile stone, before you commit yourself to an old folks home. I know, I know its horrible to talk like this and I would love to have someone convince me of this otherwise but I am so convinced that life is now going to speed past me and I will have nothing more to look forward to but to have my children grow up and leave home and then me die a lonely old women. (UGH that sounds so bad…)
You’re put on this earth to have children… O.K I have done that… Now what???
That just sounds horrible, I know, but, just not sure how I feel about it all. I am hoping that it will unfold and I will be comfortable with what’s happening in my life. Mike has said that we can talk about having another in a few years but for now he still feels that he just doesn’t want to have any more ever. I guess I can respect that. That’s O.K, right? I think right now I need to drop it and see what my life brings me in a few years and be thankful and happy that I have two perfect children….
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