SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!!!

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Why Computers Sometime s Crash!
By Dr. Seuss.

If a packet hits a pocket on a socket on a port, and the bus is interrupted at a very last resort, and the access of the memory makes your floppy disk abort, then the socket packet pocket has an error to report.

If your cursor finds a menu item followed by a dash, and the double-clicking icon puts your window in the trash, and your data is corrupted cause the index doesn't hash, then your situation's hopeless and your system's gonna crash!

If the label on the cable on the table at your house, says the network is connected to the button on your mouse, but your packets want to tunnel to another protocol, that's repeatedly rejected by the printer down the hall......

And your screen is all distorted by the side effects of gauss, so your icons in the window are as wavy as a souse; then you may as well reboot and go out with a bang, 'cuz sure as I'm a poet, the sucker's gonna hang.

When the copy on your floppy's getting sloppy in the disk, and the macro code instructions is causing unnecessary risk, then you'll have to flash the memory and you'll want to RAM your ROM, and then quickly turn off the computer and be sure to tell your Mom!

Well, that certainly clears things up for me. How about you?
"Fate is like a strange, unpopular restaurant, filled with odd waiters who bring you things you never asked for and don't always like."
 
---Lemony Snickett
 
Also, Someone mentioned this and of course who wakes up at exactly 1:00 this morning. 
 
On Wednesday of this week, at two minutes and three seconds after 1:00 in the morning, the time and date will be 01:02:03 04.05.06
 
This won't ever happen again.
To funny.
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I just want to say how much I love my family.  I had a really really hard week last week. I think of all the weeks I have had last week was the worst. I think it was the turning point from me being depressed and unhappy with everything after being PG. I didn't think I would be able to pull out of it for a while but thanks to the wonderful family I have I am feeling so much better.
On Thursday my sister came over and brought dinner and a HUGE pile of brand new clothes. She was too funny cus she walked in and then told me to go and try on all the new stuff she had brought. I was floored she purchased 8 new shirts for me. I can't believe how nice that was. I tried to give her money for them but she refused to take it from me.

So she said lets get together one Friday night and go and get some new makeup. I am not really a makeup kinda girl but now that I am getting older I need a little bit to spruce up my features. So off to Macys we go Little man went to Gogo's house for dinner so we just took little girl with us. We got there and instead of my normal makeup counter my sister directs me over the MAC. O.K I love MAC but its a bit pricey for me. I picked out I think two new colors and was ready to call it done. Well, she starts to laugh and calls the lady who works there over to us and instructs her to pick out colors that look good on my skin color. The lady then pulls out around 10-12 colors. The colors are great but I told my sister that there was no way I was going to buy all of this makeup.

My sister also told the lady that I needed a few pencils and brushes and lipstick. UGH I am looking at this pile building and building in front of us. Then I start to think, well she bought me a ton of clothes the night before so I can afford to get a few more colors. So we have the HUGE pile of makeup in front of us I am talking HUGE!!!! So I am picking through it all and I picked out a few more colors and start to head toward the register with them. Just as I get up there my sister laughs at me and hands the lady the rest of the HUGE pile of makeup and says to the lady that we want all of it. The ladies eyes get very wide and she grins. I looked at my sister assuming that she is on some kind of medication. There is no way I could ever justify spending that kind of money on makeup for myself.
SOOOOO.... She pays for it all. HELLO, it was over $350.00 worth of makeup. I couldn't believe it. I still can't believe it. I am so excited to have all kinds of cool colors and great makeup. It really made me feel good I can't tell you how nice it was of my sister to do that for me. Really it was so unexpected and wonderful of her

The rest of the weekend was crazy too. Yesterday we finally went and got Hailey's crib Its soooo cute!!! I can't tell you how perfect it is. So we put that together for her.


So I was all excited to post my weight again but was bummed to find out that I didn't loose any weight from last week. I am sure its because I was so depressed that I wasn't very good about exercising or eating well. So its back to being good and working out again starting today.
Well,

I am doing more and more soul searching and I think that I am still suffering from Postpartum depression. I am doing all I can to fight this on my own. I am not sure what to do about it all. I think if I just fight my way through it all I will be fine. Some days are better then others and the last two days I think have been some of the worst I have had since giving birth.
I am having, as crazy as this sounds, panic attacks about death and dying??? HELLO where the Hell is this coming from??? It’s so crazy?? I had a small bit with Nik but with little girl I really feel this sense of doom hanging over my head. Like, O.K I have had the kids and now my life is flying before my eyes and there is nothing I can do to stop it.  It's almost like I am having so much fun and now I don’t want it to end but am afraid that before I know it it will. Seeing Nik turn 2 made me realize how fast it's all happening.

I know in my heart of hearts that how I am feeling is wrong and I am trying to “Snap out of it” But it’s not easy. I have convinced myself that if I loose the weight I will be happy again and make this all go away. I am losing it at a pretty quick rate and am finding that I am still upset.


I have just sent my bestest friend in the whole wide world an e-mail in hopes that she can give me a good swift kick in the pants to help me out of this funk. I think I need to lean on someone for some help though this one…
The other night I was watching the Olympics and became very very sad...
There are not many people that know of one of the greatest achievements in my life. I too was like so many of those wonderful competitors that are currently realizing their dream of being a Olympian.
For many years I was a competitive shooter. I shoot in hundreds of competitors and won many many medals, money and even turkeys  I loved the sport so much. I still have all of the record books that have my name in them and all of the medals are tucked away in a small bag that I put keepsakes in.  The story was that I was the state champion of California. I had finally made the top ranks and was so proud of myself. I was unaware that because I had finally joined the ranks of the elite that I would receive an invitation to compete for the Olympic team. The letter that was sent to me inviting me to the prestigious event happened to get lost in the mail and I was not notified until the day of the event. The event was held at the training camp in Colorado Spring, Colorado. My parent unfortunate were not made of money and had to give me the heart braking news that I would be unable to attend.
Needless to say I was crushed. I had worked so many year to achieve the status in hopes that one day I would have the chance to call myself and Olympian.  I guess all things happen for a reason and if I would have gone down that path who knows where I would have been today.
After sitting and reminiscing about my years shooting I pulled out my rife to show someone and really began to think about the role that shooting played in my life. After thinking about it and remembering how much fun I had doing it I am considering picking it back up again. I know that the local chapter is still around and I many even be able to join up with the adult league that used to shoot oh Wednesday nights. I am going to do some research and see what I come up with. I would love to have the thrill of competing again.
I have also considered looking for a Triathlon that consists of shooting, running and swimming. I really enjoyed competing in the triathlon and think it would be an even bigger thrill to combine both sports. Humm. I guess we will have to see.
On another front. Little Girl has found her voice.  Today was the first official day that she was talking up a storm to both Mike and I. It was too cute.
We are off to camp this weekend  I can't wait it always nice to get away for a few days even if its local .
Other then that I spent most of today backing bread and getting ready to go. I love my new bread machine.  I swear by it  I am going to now go make sweet rolls for breakfast while we are camping 
I have two weeks left until I go back to work and I am really starting to get upset over it all. I am going to miss my family so much  But we all know that we have to work and that's just the way it goes. Thank God Mike will be home with the kids so I don't have to worry about my little ones 
Both kids are sleeping so I am going to go craft I haven't had much time to do that so it will be fun.